::SIGHHH::
I've just gotten home from my first day of classes. I had English and Finance today which in terms of teachers was overall pretty moderate. So what the heck am I "sigh-ing" about now? The classes in general! I know it's still my first day but I just feel like the diversity is just lacking. I guess I just miss my whole being in the art building for half of my classes thing. Which for the most part I am... But this time around I just feel a lack in artistry in it all. I am not swayed at all by the energy I'm getting from my classes.
But I'll give it the Boring First Day card.
"For some reason I'm actually looking forward to when the weather starts cooling down."
So once I got home I looked at a couple of my friends on my buddy list who all go to schools in the city. I just compared their experience in the city to the experience I have at boring old Long Island... How envious I am of how lucky they are to be there right now. But it's ok. I'll have my day when I'm walking down those blocks with a cup of coffee in one hand and a veiled canvas with an amazing piece of artwork I have for one of my class projects in the other. Sipping that warm coffee in a ridiculously early hour and smelling the morning city air...
"hmmmm... I can picture it all now. It's amazing..."
quick 25 minute or so sketch. something like that... yeah... ^^
You know what I think the drag is for me?
I'm not feeling the artistic challenge that I'm currently craving right now. The feeling of coming into the school and just having a sense of worth instead of just coming in just to attend a class and pass. The way I've carried myself throughout a majority of my school years when things like that Should have mattered. I'll see if I can try and join a club. I want to feel a sense of importance in that school. Passing through the art department and looking into the art rooms just made me want to just sneak into an art class and forget about the rest of my other classes. I looked at the artwork on display and just took it in as I just passed by it all. They weren't all amazing pieces but they were a connection of a network of artists I wish to surround myself with. Although there was this one painting that I definitely did not give enough respect to as I just walked by and did only a couple of take backs on.
"I must go back and stare at it tomorrow!"
Then on my way to the bathroom I ran into my 2D Design professor from last semester. And that just made me want it all even more. It was so refreshing to me for some reason.
So I'm hoping for tomorrow to be a sense more intriguing. I have my back to back art classes set. Graphic Design and Painting all in 6 jampacked hours of art. I make it sound so exciting but on the inside, I just feel like it's gonna be a long day. Today totally sucked the energy right outta me. I wonder if me having only two hours of sleep from last night has anything to do with it...
::shrug::
I've just gotten home from my first day of classes. I had English and Finance today which in terms of teachers was overall pretty moderate. So what the heck am I "sigh-ing" about now? The classes in general! I know it's still my first day but I just feel like the diversity is just lacking. I guess I just miss my whole being in the art building for half of my classes thing. Which for the most part I am... But this time around I just feel a lack in artistry in it all. I am not swayed at all by the energy I'm getting from my classes.
But I'll give it the Boring First Day card.
"For some reason I'm actually looking forward to when the weather starts cooling down."
So once I got home I looked at a couple of my friends on my buddy list who all go to schools in the city. I just compared their experience in the city to the experience I have at boring old Long Island... How envious I am of how lucky they are to be there right now. But it's ok. I'll have my day when I'm walking down those blocks with a cup of coffee in one hand and a veiled canvas with an amazing piece of artwork I have for one of my class projects in the other. Sipping that warm coffee in a ridiculously early hour and smelling the morning city air...
"hmmmm... I can picture it all now. It's amazing..."
quick 25 minute or so sketch. something like that... yeah... ^^You know what I think the drag is for me?
I'm not feeling the artistic challenge that I'm currently craving right now. The feeling of coming into the school and just having a sense of worth instead of just coming in just to attend a class and pass. The way I've carried myself throughout a majority of my school years when things like that Should have mattered. I'll see if I can try and join a club. I want to feel a sense of importance in that school. Passing through the art department and looking into the art rooms just made me want to just sneak into an art class and forget about the rest of my other classes. I looked at the artwork on display and just took it in as I just passed by it all. They weren't all amazing pieces but they were a connection of a network of artists I wish to surround myself with. Although there was this one painting that I definitely did not give enough respect to as I just walked by and did only a couple of take backs on.
"I must go back and stare at it tomorrow!"
Then on my way to the bathroom I ran into my 2D Design professor from last semester. And that just made me want it all even more. It was so refreshing to me for some reason.
So I'm hoping for tomorrow to be a sense more intriguing. I have my back to back art classes set. Graphic Design and Painting all in 6 jampacked hours of art. I make it sound so exciting but on the inside, I just feel like it's gonna be a long day. Today totally sucked the energy right outta me. I wonder if me having only two hours of sleep from last night has anything to do with it...
::shrug::
1 comment:
ridiculously hot coffee scalds your tongue at ridiculously early morning hours that smell like hot garbage.
and that's the gospel truth.
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