Out with the 8!

So I'm Back!

And smelling a little like fish because i was helping my dad cook fish for our New Years dinner!
Or at least for now, revisiting my spontaneous blogging moods. But no, really I've been very busy recently with work and finally starting work on my stories. It feels so great to finally have some free time to work on the things I want to work on now that school is done. So much to say, so little patience to type it all!
Let me start this one off with something that dragged me down and kept me at a low for a decent while. A main reason why I haven't been blogging so much.

"I Failed..."

I'm not one who takes failure lightly. After busting my butt in my Photoshop class, I ended up failing. Not because of the quality of my work, although it could have used a little more effort, but because of my tardiness. I was working extremely hard to get myself back up in that class and I was confident I did. But climbing up from that hole I dug myself into, I slipped, through no fault of my own and I failed. It's a long story what happened, but all that matters is I failed.
I sulked heavily about it for a long time, even now I'm still annoyed at myself mainly because I won't be able to take that 2D animation class this upcoming semester. I was so excited to dive right into it. But I've regained a new found and well needed ambition and drive into this media. A drive I've been trying to find for a while.

"and I found it"

I had one of the best teachers I could have asked for, and I did not take complete advantage of it. But it was enough knowledge to get me going, and offered me something to hold on to. From this overstressed bottom I've sunk into, I can only make my way up twice as better and present myself in a much more appealing manner. Especially to this teacher that challenged me in my art more than any other teacher has. And I want to show him that I Am that A student that I've presented myself to all my other art teachers.

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Back to the now.
I'm home on this faithful last day of 2008 where my year followed the literary symbolism of seasons in a sense. It started off with new beginnings;
progressing towards Spring a new short-lived love and the start of my college life until May.
Throughout the Summer I found myself surrounded with life and vitality and opportunities just holding its hands wide open to me. This Summer reminded me exactly how much I love who I am and the people that I have in my life; those who are worth my time, and those that I'd prefer on the sidelines or plainly just removed.
Towards the Fall, a new sense of loneliness came around and was filled with one of the most "shittiest" semesters of my life. If it wasn't for my painting class, I'm sure I would have probably hated it all. But then again, if it wasn't for my painting class, I'm sure my GPA this semester would look much more appealing than it does now.
And now the Winter, where things come to an end in a very gloom way revolving around me, my art and my semester. I felt horrible for a while and died a little on the inside to emphasize the season a little more. But of course as the year ended, a new life in me has opened up and I'm ready to take on bigger and better challenges. The mood of Winter still shadows over me, but its only a couple more months until I can fight the cold with my new found drive.
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Wow, I have so much to write since it's been so long. But it would all just end up to random babbling. This blog is to open up the new year, the year that I'm looking most forward to because I have so many plans to do half the things I did this year twice as better. I have a lot to look forward to and so many things to get me closer to being that artist I want to be. Aside from the fact that '09 is my favorite number

"because Blastoise was the 9th Pokemon on the list"
(Fun fact about Johnny!)

but I just feel that so much has accumulated to what's in store for me in 2009.
And I'm ready for everything. Although its only 8:51pm right now as I type away towards the end of this final blog of '08, I want to say Happy New Years to close it.
And with it a fairwell song that says Everything I feel.

Gnarls Barkley - Going On
I've seen it with my own eyes
How we're gettin otherwise without the luxury of leavin (leavin)
The touch and feeling of free is untangible technically
Something you've got to believe in ('lieve in)
Connect the cause and effect, one foot in front of the next
This is the start of a journey (journey)
And my mind is already gone, and though there are other unknowns
Somehow this doesn't concern me ('cern me)
And you can stand right there if you want

But I'm going on... and I'm prepared to go it alone~!
I'm going on... to a place in the sun that's nice and warm
I'm going on, and I'm sure they'll have a place for you too
Oo-hoo-ooh

Anyone that needs what they want, and doesn't want what they need
I want nothing to do with (do with)
I am to do what I want, and to do what I please
Is first off my to-do list (to-do list)
But every once in a while, I think about her smile
One of the few things I do miss (do miss)
But baby I've got to go, baby I've got to know
Baby I've got to prove it (prove it)
And I'll see you when you get there

But I'm going on... and I'm prepared to go it alone~!
I'm going on... may my love lift you up to the place you belong
I'm going on, and I promise I'll be waiting for you
Oo-hoo-ooh

And I'm Moving On!

Watery Tastebuds

Holidays Holidays Holidays...
I've had such a busy week with work and school now that the holiday hours are rolling in. On top of the semester coming to an end in like two weeks. It's definitely a new experience of... busy-ness for me with all of these deadlines poking at my schedule. I have zero time whatsoever to do anything else. Right now I feel like its that moment towards the middle of a movie and you're holding your breath because everything is just being revealed and all of this tension built up throughout beginning to reach its peak... Bad example? yes? no?... well deal with it. I just can't wait for winter recess to come rolling by so I can finally work on my stories.

"but moving on..."

So I'm in my photoshop class now. Another thirty minutes and I'm up and out of here to work on more projects. I'm actually working on our final project right now, devising an idea for an "Artistic Statement". A piece holding a bold statement and offers message on something we strongly believe in as an individual.

I chose a stand on Proposition 8.

My idea is still in the works and I need to hit the mark with this in terms of the message. The main message I have so far is;

"Spend our millions on poverty and hunger.

Not on Ignorance and Hate.

Abolish Proposition 8!"

My professor said that I needed to expand more on the statement. Seeing as it's too general of a message and may not catch on with those who aren't entirely clear of the Proposition. I agree. Also with the visual message I'll need to portray. I definitely have my work cut out for me.
And I like it.

----oh and note to you guys reading this----

I'm making a shirt that I'm going to use a couple of supporting bodies on. One of my plans for the project is to take a picture of a number of people wearing the shirt and making a wall of the pictures in a wide scaled product.

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But yes aside from my other deadlines this final a major focus of mine for now.

Also since I'm in my photoshop mode, I want to put up my latest project I handed in today. It was a website project promoting a cause you feel should be considered. The project was mainly a website concept seeing as we were making it with photoshop and nothing else. My cause is called the "Save the Pastries Foundation."

Here's the splash screen

Here's the concept of the site
and here's the two versions of the shirts I had fun making up

Okay.
I don't think I did TOO amazing on the site. I wanted to add a little bit more on the main page but I really couldn't figure out what before it was time to hand it in. But I'm happy I nailed the simple layout I wanted for the site. Overall I would consider it a rough draft of a potentially perky and illustrated site.
"It doesn't have enough 'Johnny' in it..."
I guess the most I could have done was put in a box for the cause description to even out with the foreground. Yeah... I should have done that.
::sigh::

"So christmas is rolling in"
and I'm asking for nothing but graphic novels.
So far I've listed these two

it's a shame I won't get what I really want for christmas.
(insider outsided)

But it's okay. Schools almost done. What more can I ask for?