Alleviated and Shakenly Motivated

::SIGH OF RELIEF::

So my stressful week seems to be waiving and things are beginning to look slightly brighter. Brighter in that things are starting to come along seemingly smoother. I'll keep a strong guard and focus up this time around to get myself back on my feet after my ridiculous streak of fruitless procrastination and scatterbrained nonsense.

To update on my art, the painting project I've been slaving on has yet to be finished. I put two and a half days (late night-all nighters) into it before it was due. The amount of detail the "boating docks" image carries is definitely something I underestimated. I'm roughly forty-five percent done, but here's how my progress looks like so far;

here's the original image
"I definitely underestimated the amount of time needed for this picture."

The dock detail forced a reluctant amount of focus out of me to just do the darn thing. But I'm very happy with how the dock came out. It looks like the painted version I saw in my head. The painted version that's So hanging in my room after I'm done with it. Definitely excited.
I handed it in today for a D grade, being incomplete. But my professor allows us two weeks to do a little extra on the piece for an even better grade with no deductions seeing as I handed the project in on time. A potential A that I'm confident I will get if I keep going with it as I did the past two days.

In relevant news, today being the due date of the project, another project was given a rightful birth. And little ambitious Johnny found another challenge. Take a look at the next piece I will be working on;

"It sure is a beautiful place"

I saw this picture and was instantly intimidated. At the same time though, I was in awe at the thought of a potentially beautiful painted version of the piece. So I had to do it. All it is, is me going against time. Time seems to be progressing itself to my arch-nemesis these days.

-------- A little more blogging, A little more personal-------

To take a step away from school for a bit,
something I would just love to do,
I've been really bothered by the fact that I haven't been able to work on my stories at all. Stories I wanted to work into comics to present to some of the artists in Artist Alley at Comic Con 09. But I've been told and told again by teachers that this position I'm in now, is the way a majority of an artist's career is going to be. Working with outlines set by other people rather than myself. Unless of course I was doing my own thing, but that's given.

Also, I've been considering taking a class or two during winter recess. It's definitely much more productive than spending it hanging out and working large amount of hours for sure. I'm sure I can make time for a lot of my social desires in between it all.

"I need to be much more serious than I have been.
I want this career really bad, and I haven't shown my worth to it."

I need to get on my with my spring registration asap as well. Tomorrow I'll be running a couple of personal errands. After my english class I plan to

• talk to the necessary advisers about the winter recess and my spring term.
• Head to the mall to pick myself up some ten dollar polos on sale from my job. Definitely excited for that!
• Then head to some book place to find a small little book-journal-diary thingy I can write my personal freewrites in; my poems.(I just realized that my laptop can crash any minute when my laptop froze during the startup earlier. Definitely need to get on that.)
• Then off to home sweet home. I have to take down three chapters of finance for a big test this friday.
• Hopefully then, I'll have some time to kill for some more brainstorming on what to do with my new photoshop project due this monday.
  

I need to get a better handle of the defining forces in my life. Burn that initiative and responsibility against my pensive and hesitant nature.

I'll end this one here. With a satisfied sigh of relief.